We may all die! buut i have a helmet

Right so todaaay there was a major of all major scandals at school:) <---- Only Smiley because everyone likes a good gossip just saying:)
It would litterally give me endless joy to tell you of this HISTORIC EVENT:) But i fear i cannot in case on day, Some fabulous person happens to read my blog and in the process, reads this scandal and that amazing person, who i love from that moment on, unless they destroy my life or reputation, happens to know some one who was involved and then while they are casually saying how amazing this blog is <---Just saying---> In passing, they also mention the scandal, and they person who they are discbing my awesomeness to asks who wrote the blog, and they say" Oh just the Fantastically talented Ty Bennett" Then that awestruck person goes to her friend and says "You know that superbly brilliant girl Ty Bennett? she wrote about some scandal on her blog, and YOU were mentioned!" Then that person gasps and tells her best friend, who goes to my school and knows me, about my writing talent and what i wrote about on that day, and they come to me and slap the bejesus out of me. And i have no friends and so no love life and i fail school from depression and lack of company and end up living in the streets with litlle of no future. And that is whay i will not tell you about this scandalas scandal:)

Its Only Dark Poetry

I wade through hurricanes,

whirling miserable cyclones;
I twist in the sky and fall to the ground
in deafening thuds that break hearts.

I crash to the floor, to crumble and burn
an angry force. Everlasting, never-ending.
I am lost in hate, surrounded by lies
in this lonely expanse, called my mind.

A rage glows inside me like the sun in the desert
its rays penetrating my soul
and creeping in my veins
Eyes watch and eyes see
I am always alone. Only me.

When is it over?
When is it done?
This awful disaster has only just begun
I scream to the silence. I roar to the night
beating the ground, lost in the fight

Stamping the ferns like lives in a jail
an echoing noise, a piecing wail.
I am an unopened letter never did it send
A raging storm rarely has an end

I punch and I kick
I beat and I shudder
Like leaves in the wind, a bag in the gutter
as I fall in the rain, the end begins again
I break apart, losing my insides
whatever was there I simply can’t find

I could search forever but there’s no-where to go
Caught up in my hate, wrapped in woe.
I tumble and churn fiery and hot
I fear that pain might never stop
I wasn’t ready when it came, I prey for it to leave
I was left without hope, yet I’ll always believe.

- Ty Bennett

Skank? Me? No!

So today was school again *Moan* And we were in our sexy winter uniform *groan* Which is actually rather sexy:) Skirt (worn highwaist of your cool)  Blue Shirt ( tucked in regardless how cool you are) tie (lose around your neck if you are rebel) Blackmail tights ( that ALWAYS fall down) black lace up shoes and blazer (sleeves rolled up to be 'relaxed' looking) I got attacked by Chlo and Pish in EMS because they were hyper:) Then we had play rehearsals *sigh* Although we do actually have a chance of winning this thing:D And i got totally depressed because i thought my love life had fallen apart (it hasn't- still hooked;) Then Chlo attacked me again buuuut i think it was more of a friendly gesture this time:/ And i came home and listened to The Script who i am in love with:)
I have taken to wearing my pyjamas and dancing round my room singing oh so very tunefully along to Taylor Swift- Who is my role model:) I find that a different one of songs i can relate to at a different time:) Today it was Sparks Fly:) That is all:) Interesting post i suppose:) I also wrote a very happy [insert sarcasm here] poem, which i will post in a mo:) CHEERS:)

These days i havent been sleeping

It is almost midnight and i still cant  sleep:/ There is thunder rolling in outside and lighting splits the sky in the two ever time it flashes. The house is dark and silent. Just the sounds of my steady heart beat and typing to disturb the silence. You keep entering my mind. Like a ferris wheel that doesnt stop. I play back our every moment and adjust each vision to my liking. Until i dont know what is fantasy and what is reality.

Alice Alice who the ^$$% is Alice

I went to Alices house today:) It was very Interesting:) She told me alot:)

Its a fear- Conversation

[What are you most afraid of?]

I am most afraid of being hurt.

Not the physical kind of hurt. Not the kind that beats and cuts you, leaving your skin bruised and bloody.

But the kind that tears at your heart. The kind that makes your mind spin and your soul ache. The kind that keeps you up all night wondering what went wrong. The kind of hurt that creeps into your every thought and word, that twists your insides and makes you want to scream with the pain of it.

I am most afraid of who might hurt me. And why.

[I will never hurt you]

[how do i know that though?]

[Because the thing that scares me most, is losing you]

Playing Golf

Yess. For all those sad people who don't know me, I am possibly one of the most uncoordinated of all uncoordinated people. This is why me playing golf, with a stick, and a ball is  not a good idea:)
But i did indeed try out this sport.
NOTE: Playing golf with Ty is potentially very dangerous and possibly harmful to yourself, herself and others. Health hazard may be fatal.
And yess, i did actually hit a ball. But sadly that ball that i hit also hit that poor man who collects the balls. You probably thinking "LIAR! there is net around that little man in his awesome ball-picking vehicle" so yes, you are right, there usually is. But that poor little man in the awesome ball-picking vehicle decide to wipe his windscreen at the same precise moment i decided to hit my ball. So as the man was leaning toward the mesh of the 'safe net' to put his hand out and wipe the windscreen, i hit my ball and it hit the mesh, but sadly also, the man. Who was knocked out cold for 30 minutes. MY BAD:)